What to say?

Well, today was possibly the most emotional day that I've ever had since the day of Simone's birth. You know when people tell you things like:

"It's in God's timing", or "God knows best", and "Nothings too big for God"?



Today, I didn't want to believe that. You see, my 8 week old daughter, Simone, was diagnosed with Spinal Meningitis. Now initially, to me, this did not sit well with me. This beautiful girl who has RADICALLY changed my life forever, was now diagnosed with something that I could not fix(which also did not sit well with me) or even do much about. The last thing I wanted to hear was "God is big enough".



I really believe that God is big enough, and can TOTALLY handle this. I do not want that to be a factor in reading this blog. God IS and WILL ALWAYS BE big enough for my problems, and praises. ALWAYS. However, I do believe that as human beings, our desires and wants to fix things that are bigger than us can really hinder us from enjoying absolute joy and peace. I wonder if that's a trait that God himself put into us. Hmm. I don't know. But I do know that in my personal time of stress, anger, sadness, despair, frustration, and feeling helpless, the last thing that my mind goes to is "GOD CAN HANDLE THIS".



I'm not sure if that's too much to share to the world, but oh well.

I want one thing to be clear. I DO BELIEVE THAT MY GOD IS BIG. I DO BELIEVE THAT MY DAUGHTER WILL BE BETTER. I DO BELIEVE THAT MY SAVIOUR KING WILL HEAL SIMONE!! I BELIEVE!!



During this whole ordeal, I have been praying, crying, praying some more, and laughing. While we have been in our hospital room, I have been trying to keep myself busy. Developing pictures is really the only thing I can do at the moment. Here is one.



Please keep praying for Simone Elizabeth, and for Tiffani & I. Thank You!